Thursday, February 21, 2008

iTS Not FaIR!!!

hELLo aLL..

iTS been 2 days..
smlm gi the curve..ngn mas ngn hasfa..
had a good and fun time..
pg mkn karipap n hotdog kt IKEA..
banyak aku mkn..
pastu g hartams lepak minum ngn mkn waffle kat hartamas square..
pastu g umah anacinta kat subang usj17 tgk baju nk pinjam..
currently listening to Cinta Pertama By Bunga Citra Lestari..
due mlm lps..
kinda had a fight.
it wasnt a fight actually.
i asked him to stop..
stop need to sms need to ask me "how r u ",no need to pretend like he really care,no need to bother..
i think he just feel sympathy for me..
he just feel guilty..
n in order to meringankan rasa guilty die tu..die pn msgla aku..
nak explain..what is there left to explain????
he might feel better after explaining..but me???
n why now???
its not that i didnt try..
for god sake i've tried!!!
i've tried to pretend like nothing happened..pretend like i am fine n will be fine..
pretend like it didnt hurt me when he walked away just like that..pretend like i forgot everything n move on wif my life..pretend that im happy for him...
but im dying inside..
its been 4 years..time melts into nothing..nothings changed..
i still have my heart wif him..
u thinks its fair???
now i know that im never gonna have the chance to see or talk to him again..
i dont know..
i dont know if this is the right thing to do..
im tired mannn..
tired of this..
tired of thinking of him..
tired of hoping..
it seems like an endless torture to me..
god please make me forget him!!!


Anonymous said...

it's ok honey...he doesnt deserve u..(ye ke?)
eleh...majok2 but look now?ure happy with that particular him kan?